2011 and so on

Everybody is talking about New Year’s Resolutions and what not around this time. I decided to take this time to document some of my thoughts on the topic for my own personal reflection. But, I have no problem sharing. 2011, had a great deal of lessons that came at me from different directions that I was previously accustomed for. The details and specifics are not important, because I am sure everyone can relate to dealing with the unexpected to some degree. However, 2012 represents something deeper than any new year has in my past. This unction I made sure to pay attention to in order to ensure that I take all from it that I am supposed to.

The most important thing in 2011 is I learned to "STAY POSITIVE" because everything isn’t going to go according to plan, everything isn’t going to align with your dreams. At the end of the day, all these workings go towards a greater SOMETHING. Here's an inspire quote from Kevin Jonas, he said, "Something beautiful can come out from a tough situation". TOUGH SITUATION. Plus in Al-Quran, Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 286, Allah berfirman, "Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya oleh nya". Looking back on situations, I can honestly say I learned something.  I feel like that’s all that matters. I am taking greater knowledge and better understanding into the new year.

In a sense, my resolutions are already made. It will take time to manifest and I will trip up a few times, but my stance on things has shifted me into a different place. At the end of the day, it is what it is. I just am making sure that I am reaching for something and pressing for something better than my last. We’re still living. The future has never looked so good. I just ask that Allah blesses my life. Amin. :)

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"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

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You say goodbye and I say hello

As the final hours of 2011 are upon us, I suppose its customary to reflect on days past. A year is a very long time to sum up in a couple of paragraphs or even a couple of hours, but it is of course only the big things that we reflect upon. 

It is funny to me that we celebrate the end of a year as though we couldn’t wait for it to be over, and yet welcome the new year with open arms. Is it the hope of a better tomorrow that keeps us going? A thought that this will be the one to change the ones to come? I suppose that for myself, that is the case. Longing for a better tomorrow is nothing new, or really innovative but something that human nature posseses us to desire. 

My feelings towards the past year are of course bittersweet. I am sad to see such a wonderful time of my life end, but yet i welcome the rest of my days with tumultuous abandon. Personally speaking, a lot happened in the past year that assisted in moulding this path that I am on. I do not see this year as the end of a chapter, instead just the PROLOGUE. 

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"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

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Time you enjoyed wasting is not wasted time

I'm so forever blur and forever lazy. Such a horrid habit of mine. Not to forget how easily distracted I am! Right now, I should be up studying. I mean, my mid sem exam is just around the corner. It's literally a month away. Yet here, I'm lazing around on my bed, procrastinating, and wasting time. They said, "Time you enjoyed wasting is not wasted time", but yeah, this is just far too much "enjoyed time".

Right now, I should get up, wash my face, so I can go have my drink, obviously, not coffee. I hate coffee. So, I can study, then, pass my test. InsyaAllah. Ya Allah, I better get going!

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"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

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Love or hate

I hate LOVE. It's a painful torture. Some people said, love is beautiful while some not. Beautiful or not, it hurts. It really hurts. Day after day sticking by someone who only cares when they want to. Feeling so low and down because of the little things they do hurt so much. The little things can have a big impact on a person's heart. How do you know when someone truly loves you? The truth is, you don't. You have to hope that they do love you, because you can never truly understand what someone is feeling. I don't want you to leave. People always leave me. It's kinda fucked up isn't it? How all of sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words. Nothing. They just leave you hanging like you never meant shit to them and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy. Why doesn't anyone actually want to stay with me? What's wrong with me?

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"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

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Family and holiday

Okay, I got 3 days of holiday because of Christmas eve. So, FYEAH! And I spent that three days with my beloved and lovely family. Well, I wanna spend the day with my friends too, but 3 days is not enough. At first we planned to go to Genting Highlands, but the weather is not really cool. Nanti kan berkabus je kat Genting High tuh, tak dapat nak main outdoor theme park. So, I told my dad to bring us, shopping, walking, spending the day at Midvalley Megamall/The Gardens. So, yeah. For his beloved daughter, dia sanggup ikut je. Hehehe. Ye lah, aku kan maca jarang - jarang balik rumah. Jalan2 dekat shopping mall pun aku dah okay, as long as, I stick with my family. 

So, this is the christmas decoration at the centre court of the Midvalley. See the Santa Claus there?

So, we went to Jusco. Kids section. Alah , ada games bagai. Aku pergi situ sebab nak pergi photobooth. Thank God, photobooth tu dah upgrade ke English. Kalau dulu bahas Jepun ke Korea entah . Hehe. We love to make silly expressions. Mata memang fake gila ah in the photos ;)

At The Gardens, depan gadget stores like Apple, Samsung, Nokia, and stuff. I checked out some phones from Samsung and camera from Sony. Seriously, I need to change my phone to Samsung Galaxy SII or iPhone 4s. Ughh. But I don't have money. =.='

So, that Saturday night, my dad took us to Tasik Titiwangsa. Having our dinner there. 

My face look so bulattt. Like seriously. =.='

Jeng jeng jeng ! Our steamboat ! Lots of fishballs and chickenballs. 

Me after dinner. Burppppp. Kekenyangan.

Me and momma, sementara tunggu my dad with his car.

So, the next morning, after lunch, we went to One Utama. Seriously jam gila. Tapi my dad sanggup melalui , meredah kesesakan lalu lintas semata - mata untuk spend time with the whole family. Bukan senang taw nak gather semua sekali at one time memandangkan aku dah study dekat college. Adik aku pulak dekat MRSM. And both my parents are so busy.

So, that's my lil sister. See how small I am. Hahaha. And that's my handsome daddy . The lighting sangat kuat. That's why we alls agak berkerut sikit. lol

Me. With Spritzer mineral water. Untuk mengelakkan dehydration. Hehehe ;)

This is the Christmas decoration at New Wing One Utama. Sangat cantik kan. Different. My mom said to me, "Nanti shera nak kahwin nanti, kita buat design macam ni lah. Senang sikit. Tak payah bunga-bunga bagai." And I said to my mom, "Ha'ah kan, buat macam Mermaid theme" . And my sister said, "Ask your husband to put the ring inside the cengkerang". And my mom menyampunk, "And we can put all the hantaran, on the cengkerang" . And I was like, "Oh yeah, cool". My dad just heard our conversation and smiled. :D Well, an idea from my mom. We'll see how's my wedding in 5-7 years more. InsyaAllah ;) So, we spent the day from pagi to maghrib. I felt super tired. Kaki lenguh bagai, but it's all worth it. 

Spending our time with the whole family is one of the greatest moments in my life. A quote from my Account's teacher, he said to us, "Selagi korang ada masa untuk spend time dengan family, go, get it, nnti korang dah busy dengan belajar, then kerja, then kahwin. Semua ada komitmen masing-masing. So, masa untuk family tuh dah berkurang sikit. So, get this opportunity to get close with your family." ;)

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"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

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