"" ○|▲ FEEL the VIBES ϟ: December 2011

Saturday, December 31, 2011

2011 and so on

Everybody is talking about New Year’s Resolutions and what not around this time. I decided to take this time to document some of my thoughts on the topic for my own personal reflection. But, I have no problem sharing. 2011, had a great deal of lessons that came at me from different directions that I was previously accustomed for. The details and specifics are not important, because I am sure everyone can relate to dealing with the unexpected to some degree. However, 2012 represents something deeper than any new year has in my past. This unction I made sure to pay attention to in order to ensure that I take all from it that I am supposed to.

The most important thing in 2011 is I learned to "STAY POSITIVE" because everything isn’t going to go according to plan, everything isn’t going to align with your dreams. At the end of the day, all these workings go towards a greater SOMETHING. Here's an inspire quote from Kevin Jonas, he said, "Something beautiful can come out from a tough situation". TOUGH SITUATION. Plus in Al-Quran, Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 286, Allah berfirman, "Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya oleh nya". Looking back on situations, I can honestly say I learned something.  I feel like that’s all that matters. I am taking greater knowledge and better understanding into the new year.

In a sense, my resolutions are already made. It will take time to manifest and I will trip up a few times, but my stance on things has shifted me into a different place. At the end of the day, it is what it is. I just am making sure that I am reaching for something and pressing for something better than my last. We’re still living. The future has never looked so good. I just ask that Allah blesses my life. Amin. :)

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

You say goodbye and I say hello

As the final hours of 2011 are upon us, I suppose its customary to reflect on days past. A year is a very long time to sum up in a couple of paragraphs or even a couple of hours, but it is of course only the big things that we reflect upon. 
It is funny to me that we celebrate the end of a year as though we couldn’t wait for it to be over, and yet welcome the new year with open arms. Is it the hope of a better tomorrow that keeps us going? A thought that this will be the one to change the ones to come? I suppose that for myself, that is the case. Longing for a better tomorrow is nothing new, or really innovative but something that human nature posseses us to desire. 
My feelings towards the past year are of course bittersweet. I am sad to see such a wonderful time of my life end, but yet i welcome the rest of my days with tumultuous abandon. Personally speaking, a lot happened in the past year that assisted in moulding this path that I am on. I do not see this year as the end of a chapter, instead just the PROLOGUE

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Time you enjoyed wasting is not wasted time

I'm so forever blur and forever lazy. Such a horrid habit of mine. Not to forget how easily distracted I am! Right now, I should be up studying. I mean, my mid sem exam is just around the corner. It's literally a month away. Yet here, I'm lazing around on my bed, procrastinating, and wasting time. They said, "Time you enjoyed wasting is not wasted time", but yeah, this is just far too much "enjoyed time".

Right now, I should get up, wash my face, so I can go have my drink, obviously, not coffee. I hate coffee. So, I can study, then, pass my test. InsyaAllah. Ya Allah, I better get going!

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Monday, December 26, 2011

Love or hate

I hate LOVE. It's a painful torture. Some people said, love is beautiful while some not. Beautiful or not, it hurts. It really hurts. Day after day sticking by someone who only cares when they want to. Feeling so low and down because of the little things they do hurt so much. The little things can have a big impact on a person's heart. How do you know when someone truly loves you? The truth is, you don't. You have to hope that they do love you, because you can never truly understand what someone is feeling. I don't want you to leave. People always leave me. It's kinda fucked up isn't it? How all of sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words. Nothing. They just leave you hanging like you never meant shit to them and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy. Why doesn't anyone actually want to stay with me? What's wrong with me?

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Family and holiday

Okay, I got 3 days of holiday because of Christmas eve. So, FYEAH! And I spent that three days with my beloved and lovely family. Well, I wanna spend the day with my friends too, but 3 days is not enough. At first we planned to go to Genting Highlands, but the weather is not really cool. Nanti kan berkabus je kat Genting High tuh, tak dapat nak main outdoor theme park. So, I told my dad to bring us, shopping, walking, spending the day at Midvalley Megamall/The Gardens. So, yeah. For his beloved daughter, dia sanggup ikut je. Hehehe. Ye lah, aku kan maca jarang - jarang balik rumah. Jalan2 dekat shopping mall pun aku dah okay, as long as, I stick with my family. 

So, this is the christmas decoration at the centre court of the Midvalley. See the Santa Claus there?

So, we went to Jusco. Kids section. Alah , ada games bagai. Aku pergi situ sebab nak pergi photobooth. Thank God, photobooth tu dah upgrade ke English. Kalau dulu bahas Jepun ke Korea entah . Hehe. We love to make silly expressions. Mata memang fake gila ah in the photos ;)

At The Gardens, depan gadget stores like Apple, Samsung, Nokia, and stuff. I checked out some phones from Samsung and camera from Sony. Seriously, I need to change my phone to Samsung Galaxy SII or iPhone 4s. Ughh. But I don't have money. =.='

So, that Saturday night, my dad took us to Tasik Titiwangsa. Having our dinner there. 

My face look so bulattt. Like seriously. =.='

Jeng jeng jeng ! Our steamboat ! Lots of fishballs and chickenballs. 

Me after dinner. Burppppp. Kekenyangan.

Me and momma, sementara tunggu my dad with his car.

So, the next morning, after lunch, we went to One Utama. Seriously jam gila. Tapi my dad sanggup melalui , meredah kesesakan lalu lintas semata - mata untuk spend time with the whole family. Bukan senang taw nak gather semua sekali at one time memandangkan aku dah study dekat college. Adik aku pulak dekat MRSM. And both my parents are so busy.

So, that's my lil sister. See how small I am. Hahaha. And that's my handsome daddy . The lighting sangat kuat. That's why we alls agak berkerut sikit. lol

Me. With Spritzer mineral water. Untuk mengelakkan dehydration. Hehehe ;)

This is the Christmas decoration at New Wing One Utama. Sangat cantik kan. Different. My mom said to me, "Nanti shera nak kahwin nanti, kita buat design macam ni lah. Senang sikit. Tak payah bunga-bunga bagai." And I said to my mom, "Ha'ah kan, buat macam Mermaid theme" . And my sister said, "Ask your husband to put the ring inside the cengkerang". And my mom menyampunk, "And we can put all the hantaran, on the cengkerang" . And I was like, "Oh yeah, cool". My dad just heard our conversation and smiled. :D Well, an idea from my mom. We'll see how's my wedding in 5-7 years more. InsyaAllah ;) So, we spent the day from pagi to maghrib. I felt super tired. Kaki lenguh bagai, but it's all worth it. 

Spending our time with the whole family is one of the greatest moments in my life. A quote from my Account's teacher, he said to us, "Selagi korang ada masa untuk spend time dengan family, go, get it, nnti korang dah busy dengan belajar, then kerja, then kahwin. Semua ada komitmen masing-masing. So, masa untuk family tuh dah berkurang sikit. So, get this opportunity to get close with your family." ;)

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Awal Ashaari & twitter

Awal Ashaari. I bet you guys know him right? One of the hottest men in Malaysia. Every single girl in Malaysia is obsessed with him. Well, not every girl. Most of Malaysian girls lah. :D Tipu lah kalau korang kata Awal Ashaari tak handsome. Haha. So, I was scrolling down my twitter timeline, then, Awal posted something, saying that he just uploaded some photos in his facebook. So, I moved to his facebook , and I saw four albums on his Korea trip. Honestly, I'm not a Korea fan. I mean the Kpop stuff. When I saw all those photos from Awal, I gotta say, Korea is one of the must-visit country! It's going to be on my travel list besides Mekah, Greece, California, Australia, Bora-bora and too many to say it in here. Well, I copied some of Awal's photos during his trip. Here you go :

Bapak style gila kan pakwe aku nih . Hehee .

Okay, then I went to my twitter . I tweeted like this , "Macam best je @awalashaari ni pergi Korea. Ada 4 album trip dy ke Korea" . Yes, I mentioned his name. And aku macam tak expect pun dy akan reply. Cz aku mmg suka mention2 nama celebs nih, include Justin Bieber, One Direction, Yuna, Zayn Malik, tapi diorang tak pernah reply pun. ;') Yeah, I know diorang mana sempat nk reply all the tweets from their fans, so, aku pun macam watlek je lah kan, macam possible je Awal Ashaari nk reply kan. lol. But then, after one hour something, aku check mention aku. and guess what ? Awal Ashaari replied my tweet! Wehooooo! See?

Mesti ada yang cakap macam ni, kalau baca entry aku. "Eleh, Justin Bieber reply tweet aku, tak kecoh pun" or maybe macam nih, "Awal Ashaari reply tweet pun nak kecoh kat blog, fb & twitter, Awal Ashaari je pun" . Okay , I don't care. IDGAF. This is my blog. Suka hati aku lah nak tulis apa pun. I'm one of Awal Ashaari's biggest fan. So, I'm so happy cz he replied my tweet. Haha. Well, just wanna say, my sister is super jealous with me now. Cz she's too obsessed with Mr. Awal. ;)

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Friday, December 16, 2011

I Like You


I like you . I'm never going to tell you that I like you. I don't wanna feel dumb and tell you, and then get a bad reply. Something in my mind telling that you like me back from all the signals you've sent to me but another thing is telling me that you're just playing with me.

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Semester 2

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

A friend

This is Anis Syafiqah, just call her Effy. I still remember the first time we met. I was walking at the Physics Lab with Ana, trying to find Physics Lab 4. And then, you came to us, asking us, which class we are in. And secara kebetulan, we all memang satu kelas! Wehooo! Haha. So, start dari situ we all getting closer. Mana-mana pergi je mesti berempat. Me, Ana, Effy and Mas. But she's closer with Mas more. Even though baru kenal around 5 months, kitaorang semua ada chemistry with each other. Effy is such a friendly girl, sometimes malu-malu kucing jugak. HAHA. Sorry ye Effy. Peace! And when she has a problem, we can see it thru her expression. Seriously, she's not good at hiding her problem. Unlike me! HAHA. I tell you what, she's close with this one guy at the college, in our class. They said they're just friend. Hmm. Idk lah. It's just hard for me to believe it. The way they communicate each other, there's something about them. Idk what. Maybe they're just teman tapi mesra, but... Hmm. I wonder. Okay, stop talking about their relationship. She's a real friend. She's not fake. She loves to try something new. Bukan something new macam drugs or what? Something new yang positive lah. Hehe. 

She's pretty. Ramai yang duduk usha dia dekat college nih. Asal aku jalan dengan dia kan, mesti ada je yang pandang dia. Tapi dia bukan lah jenis yang melayan strangers kan. Maybe dia setia dengan someone out there? Who knows right? HAHA. I forgot to tell ya, why I write this entry. This entry is dedicated for her. This is because, she moved out from this Pahang Matriculation College, cz she got an offer for SPA-Nursing. It was her choice and her family pun asked her to choose Nursing. It's hard for me and other classmates to let her go. We've lost lots of friends. Mula-mula Aishah, then, Musfirah, then, Nurul and now Effy. Hmm. 

So, one night, before she leaved, Irfan said to me, "Tak nak beli hadiah ke for Effy?" I was like, "Okay boleh je..." Dipendekkan cerita, we bought her this bee . 

Disebabkan aku agak malas dah nak tulis panjang - panjang, so, we had a surprise party for her , during her last night in the college. Walaupun it was just an hour. It was great. :)

Effy, hopefully kita dapat jumpa lagi. InsyaAllah, after graduate from this college, we all akan try untuk buat reunion party. And aku harap sangat kau tak lupa dekat kawan-kawan kau kat sini. Especially aku. Hehee ;)

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Lunar Eclipse

I was on my twitter last Friday night and I saw a tweet from my friend, saying that there will be a Lunar Eclipse on 10th December. I was like, "Oh, okay. That's cool. I'm gonna watch it cz I missed the eclipse during June" . So, last night, I went to the cafe alone, bought my Nasi Goreng Pattaya (FOREVER ALONE), I looked at the night sky. It was so dark. It was raining. I couldn't find the moon. I guess the moon hid from me.  Then, I went upstairs, to my room. Tweeting. One of my sister's friend said, we could watch it online. So, I'm kind of excited. So, I watched it thru this one website. It was live from the Singapore. It was cool. Even though I couldn't watch it live from the outside using my naked eyes, at least I could watch it thru live stream. Yeah, the feeling is a bit different when you watched it at the outside and thru the lappy's screen. But whatever it is, the moon looked so beautiful last night. Subhannallah, betapa besarnya kebesaran Illahi. Betapa  indahnya ciptaan - Nya. 

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Friday, December 9, 2011

Result PSPM Semester 1

One week before the result :
I've heard rumors from my friends . They said around 300 over 1000++ students failed for PSPM . Like seriously , I was like "OHMYGADDD, ramai gila kot" . So , kalau korang ah kan , result final nak keluar , then , dengar pulak rumors camtuh , ape feeling korang ?? Mesti stress gila kan . Probability kita untuk berada di kelompok 3oo students tuh memang ada . Dah lah dengan result mid-sem aku yang entah apa-apa . Aku memang stress gila . Nak buat assignments pun tak boleh nak focus oh . So , I told my friend about that , he said to me , don't be pessimist . And masa tuh aku selalu je cakap kat diri aku , THINK POSITIVE no matter what happens . 

The BLOODY day
The result came out on 6th December 2011 at 3PM to 5PM . It started from 3PM! Bukan 10 PM macam nak ambik result UPSR, PMR & SPM . Dah lah we all kena belajar macam biasa . Just imagine lah kan . Time lecture memang fikiran melayang entah ke mana . Thank God ada certain lecturers yang sangat-sangat memahami . Masa lunch , my sister texted me . She said , my youngest sister had a dream bout my result . Aku tak nak ah bagitahu berapa kan . Yang aku boleh bagitahu , pointer 3 and above . So , I finished my calss at 4PM . Ya Allah , masa tuh aku berdoa dekat Allah supaya bagi result yang terbaik untuk aku , dan aku harap sangat aku dapat terima result aku nnti . Masa on the way nak ke Hall , aku macam memang tak nak pandang ah muka students lain . Takut terpandang muka HAPPY , takut terpandang muka sedih . Ya Allah . Aku rasa lemah gila masa tuh . Aku pun pergi counter 5 . I showed my matric card . The lecturer cari my name , I closed my eyes for a few second and I was like (dalam hati) , "Bismillahirrahmanirrahim" . I opened my eyes . And I was shocked actually , bukan terkejut sebab result teruk , terkejut sebab aku tak penah expect aku boleh capai tahap tuh . And the most interesting part is , result yang adik aku mimpi tuh , memang sebijik sama dengan reality taw . Ya Allah , aku bersyukur sangat waalupun aku tak dapat 4 flat . Everything happens for a reason kan . Maybe usaha aku tak kuat sangat . Maybe kena improve lagi . InsyaAllah , this second semester, I'll try my best to get 4 flat or at least higher than Semester 1 . Amin .

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Friday, December 2, 2011

I Love You ;)

Did you know that in Japan there are 3 ways to say "I love you"? You say "Daisuki" for friends and guys you like, you say "Aishiteru" for a more serious relationship and you say "Koishiteru" to the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. And they follow this rule. That is one of the things I admire about them. They didn't make "I love you" lose its meaning like us.

Via  Tumblr

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella