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Monday, October 17, 2011

MUET - Speaking Test

I've been busy since the past few weeks . Mygadddd , the final exam for this semester is just around the corner . It's on 21st October , starting with two English papers . K, I wanna tell you guys about the MUET speaking test . Duhhh . Seriously, I actually didn't prepare for it until the night before the test . You know, I'm a last-minute person , dude ! Well, my speaking test was on 13 October , It was the 3rd day of the MUET speaking test . Thank God lah kan . My friends said the test was super easy because all the examiners are so kind, so friendly . They said , when you walk into the room, yes, you'll be so freaking nervous . But after that, when you sit down at the room , that feeling will gone . At first , I didn't believe that until I experienced it myself . K, before that , I wanna tell you guys, the night before the test, all my friends, I mean my group members named Irfan Syairazi - the owner of the blog, Noorul Shaharah - the Terengganu's girl , and Ainnatul Jannah - the Pahang's girl . So, we decided to do our practice at the libarary . Honestly, that was my first time going to the library during the night . I'm not a kaki library , actually :) Then , we found our place, yes, there's lots of students, practising MUET with their members and some other nerdies doing their stuff . K, I should start talking about us . HAHA . We practice and I was like , blur gilaaaa on that time . I had no idea . NO IDEA at all =.= I was bloody nervous . I said to myself , "I'm afraid I'm gonna be blur tomorrow, hopefully, everything is gonna be alright" . THAT BLOODY DAY . 13 OCTOBER 2011 , 07:30 AM at the bilik menunggu . After a short procedure, I found out that we were the 1st group that should present at 8:00AM . There were 5 groups . I group 30 minutes . I checked out my watch like thousands time . WAITING, WAITING and WAITING . It was like the prisoners waiting for their punishment . It was satu penantian yang menyeksakan . Tick tock, tock tock, tick tock . Yes, finally, 8:00AM . I walked . Yes, still feeling nervous . Into the room , feeling a bit nervous . Just A BIT . Sitting on my seat . Pufffff . The feeling was gone ! GONE to , IDK where . lol . There were 2 task . TASK A and TASK B . Task A is about individual presentation (2 minutes) , TASK B is a group discussion (10 minutes) . I am Candidate B . We were given 1 minutes to read the question . I was like , "OHMYGADDDDD, we've done it before . Just a bt different " . Then , bla bla bla from Candidate A (Irfan) , then , it's my turn . JENG JENG JENG . The title given is FRIENDSHIP is the  important thing in life . I felt quite confident during that time . Maybe , I've been through situation yang lebih kurang macam tu . I listed 3 points , but then , I asked myself "Should I continue to the 4th point ? Oh wait . Damn man , I don't have 4th point . Hopefully, the time is almost 2 minutes..." , I talked clearly,

Me : My 4th point is .....
Examiner : Your time is up !
Me : In  conclusion , .......

Actually, during the conclusion , I'm not sure if I said Thank You or not . lol . Then , it's time for TASK B . We planned to agree on one point only . HEALTH, FRIENDSHIP, EDUCATION or FAMILY . Irfan , as the chair person should decide which one is the most important and he should show us the sign . Seriously, I didn't notice the sign . Then , I was like, "Oh mannnn , irfan terlupa ke ? Looks like I just have to follow the flow" . BLA BLA BLA . Lastly, I knew he chose FAMILY as the most important thing . I was like , "Thank God, I have the reasons to support that main point" . BLA BLA BLA . Then , the Candidate D talked about something . Something funny . Thank God I wasn't burst into laughter . lol . I looked at Arah - menahan ketawa . The examiners too . Heheee . Then , it's time to conclude . Candidate A made the conclusion , "Since all of us agree with HEALTH as the most important thing in life ........" . I looked at Arah and Jannah with shocked eyes . "OHMYGADDD, he mentioned it wrong . It should be FAMILY, let's pray the examiners didn't notice" .  Then , we took our bags . Irfan said he didn't realize he mentioned the wrong point he thinks the examiners didn't notice about it . Fuhhh . Let's hope . Then , we straight away to Cafeteria - having our breakfast there .

p/s : In conclusion , I think it was one of the coolest experience I ever had . :)

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Monday, October 10, 2011

Harry & Cancer

K, I wanna put something good in my blog . Something that inspire people . Today's entry is not about my personal life . Today's entry is about Harry Moseley. He was an 11 year old boy with an inoperable brain tumor. He raised money for brain cancer research and made bracelets, and did public speaking to raise awareness and funds for his illness.

Harry is one of the bravest boys I’ve ever heard of, and many people had the honor of meeting him before his passing.

Harry passed away at 11.10pm on the 8th October 2011.
He was an inspiration to many, and still will be in the future. He was a shining star in everyone’s sky and still will be for me. He was a brave, brave boy and I hope he’s comfortable where he is now. 
RIP Harry . :'(

For more details , please click HERE .

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Mas Aliza's birthday

Hari ini birthday Mas Aliza, one of best friends in Matriculation College . So, my friends and I planned to celebrate her birthday cz she's so stress as the final exam is just around the corner, and we wanna make her smile and laugh with our plan. Atctually, our first plan was, we should surprise her during the midnight . At 12:00 am , on 8th October . But we had to cancel it memandangkan petang tuh ada larian Kakom. Dalam bahasa budak-budak sekolah, larian merentas desa. lol . Everyone macam penat je kan . So, we had to postpone it and we planned to made the partyyyy after program Biology . So, I went straight to the shop, nak ambik cake, and then terus ke cafe. At first , we wanna celebrate it there, but , the cafe was too crowded, cz it was lunch hour . So, we  decided to go to the not-so-beautiful lake behind the girls' block .

Birthday girl

K, then , we asked mas to take a picture with Fikry . Act , depa nih kena gossip sebenarnya . That's why mas macam malu - malu kucing . HAHA . Sebenarnya , we all suruh ambik gambar sebab nak baling tepung kat dia . Bak kata pepatah ada udang di sebalik batu . lol . sebenar-benarnya, ada tepung cucur lemak manis di sebalik tangan Fikry . HAHA . When I counted 1,2,3 , bushhhh ! Habis berserekan tepung on Mas' tudung . Well, technically, it's Ana's tudung . HAHA

Kesiannn dekat birthday girl

Look at em , how cute they were right ?

At first, I thought she was crying . Cuakkk gak . lol

Dua bestfriend yang mengelak . Last2 kana jugak ! HAHA . Padan muka u olls . 

The owner of the camera . Kena setepek ke muka . HAHA . Nih lah budak terengganu , satu group speaking test for MUET dengan aku . She's so funny 

Lovely classmates :)

The only two boys yang sporting . The other four tak tahu ke mana . 

GOOD TIMES with em . Love you guys . X

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Friday, October 7, 2011


Him . One day you guys randomly start talking. He compliments you and tells you you're pretty and stuff. He asks you about your past relationships and you ask him about his. You told your problems and he told bout his. When you tell him you've been hurt thousand times, he tells you that those guys are jerks and stupids. He starts flirting with you and you start flirting back even though you know he already has a girlfriend. Then, he ask your skype name and you give it to him right away. The next day , he IMs you and tells you good morning and tells have a good day. Soon, chatting with him in social networking websites becomes apart of your daily lives and you wait for him to text/chat with you every day. Whenever you receive something from him, you start smiling and your day becomes better. He texts you daily and asks you how's your day went. You video calling in Skype with him till 1.00 a.m and he always asks if you are tired and if you want to go to bed. The night video calling you have with him are always the best and the deepest. You sleep when he sleeps, he sleeps when you sleep. And now you tell your friends what an amazing guy he is and you are interested in him. One day, he suddenly stops texting you first. When you guys talk now, it's only because you say HI to him first. Things changed and you don't understand what unexpectedly happened. He stops putting effort texting to you. You become extremely clingy. You can't help wondering what went wrong. You start thinking he's mad at you for something you did. You give him some time. So, you wait for a while and nothing is changing. He's still "busy" all the time and he doesn't even try to talk to you. Now, every time you talk to him, it becomes awkward and you know, he doesn't really enjoy texting with you. And you get scared that you are being annoying by hitting him up first, so you stop talking to him . Months pass, and you don't text to him at all. You never know what happened from his point of view. Because of him. every day and every night, you're hurt and upset. You don't know what went wrong in the relationship between you two. You tell yourself to forget him and that he doesn't deserve someone like you. But you can't follow it, you're already too attached to him. You miss the old person he used to be and you don't even know what he has changed into. And one day you see his page, and he's calling a girl (his girlfie) with cute names. He calls her ****** and tells her he thinks she's gorgeous. He seems completely fine without you. You're still hurt and he has already moved on. You're still sad and everything you do reminds you of him. You still secretly hope that one day he will start texting to you again and you guys will pick up where you last left off but you also know that it will never ever happen. You compare every guy you know with him. There are times when you hate him because you can't erase all the memories between you two. you just feel like you should just stop thinking about it, but, you know, you can't. He's already forgotten about you but you're still having a hard time letting go. 


There you go. This is a true story. Story about me and him. I know he probably will read this because he knows my blog. If you think you are the guy, I just wanna say, I miss you. I miss how you cared for me, how you always made my day, how you used to cheer me up and how you made me feel. I miss everything that we used to be. Now, I don't mind if you don't wanna be my lover , I just wanna be your friend . Yes , I have to admit, I fell for you . But now, I'll try to put limit if we are going to be friends again . I just wanna know what happened actually ? WHAT HAPPENED? WHY this things happened between us? Just tell me .

"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Steve Jobs & Apple

Steve Jobs at his home office, 1982
“I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?
It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it’s likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.
Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
My second story is about love and loss.
I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.
I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.
I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.
My third story is about death.
When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.
This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope it’s the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960’s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
Thank you all very much.”
- Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005. click here!

Today, the world lost a true genius, an inspiration, an amazing innovator .

"If you live each day as it was your last, someday you will most certainly be right" - Steve Jobs

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"If you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true" - Cinderella